August 7, 2017
Turns out house building has some really good lessons to teach...
Today we got concrete. Lots and lots of concrete!
And as all that concrete was being poured, all I could think was POUR YOUR HEART OUT!!!
But, when I got to really thinking about it...there;s really a lot more than just pouring your heart out.
Because, before we got concrete, the wonderful crew set up the forms. The forms are basically a huge jello mold for the foundation. Something to pour all that concrete into. The physical structure that holds all that flowy, wet, liquidy concrete in place...until the concrete sets and can stand on its own. The forms are the support that actually gives the concrete its super-important foundation-shaped shape. The shape that it needs in order to actually hold my house up. To actually be a foundation.
So, if the trucks had just came and poured the concrete, sans forms, there would just be a GIANT concrete pancake outside the shed. Or all that concrete would just fill the bottom of the giant foundation-hole. A giant rectangle of concrete.
I think you know where I am going with this.
It's not enough to pour your heart out. It's all about having the right vessel to pour your heart into.
Right now I am choosing to pour my heart into this house project. Because I can. Because I love the way it's just a giant puzzle. Because it's a dream project and I am lucky and privileged to be able to chase that dream. I am also dripping what's left of my heart into keeping a very thin thread of writing alive during building and (what will be) a very busy, work-filled August. I am pouring my heart into my family. I am pouring my heart back into myself. I will keep pouring, but I won't let anything pool or pancake or slop over the sides and go to waste. I am decisive about my forms, because I don't have an endless supply of concrete - I can't waste it - and I am trying to build something special here.
What about you? What vessel are you pouring your heart into? How can you be intentional about setting the forms to make your pouring square or efficient or quick or long-lasting or whatever shape you need it to be?